the harderst it gets.. the more love im feeling..

i wish i have a reason..
but i cant even find any reason..

"its not you.. its me"
the words.. you're using..
what it means..?
its an excuse..

what is wrong..
for me to love someone..
so much..
to love someone with all my heart..
to sincerely loving you..
what is wrong with me being true to myself..
for once???

it is pain im going through..
sometimes i cant take it..
but this love im feeling.. is even stronger..
stronger than the pain..
how am i suppose to give up..?

now can you please explain..
what is wrong to love..
what is so wrong to feel..
what is so wrong with me?
and im sure its not you..

im always the problem..
im sorry.. you dont have to deny it..
i know..
if its not for me..
you wont feel this way...

i hate to see you suffer..
from thinking about
whatever it is that related to me..
no that's not what i want..
i want you to be happy..
and i do..
you're way too special..
for all of these..
you do deserve better than this..
and i know you knew it..

i wish i can let you go..
so you're free to feel only the good things in life..
joyful story of your own..
i dont want you to share the pain
that i've been through all my life..
you're to precious for that sunshine..

owwhhh.. i dont know what to do..
am i too selfish..
im wondering if i ever done anything good for you..
its like loving you its not enough..
someone like you need more than i could ever offered..
im out of my mind..
i kept thinking about letting you go..
so hard.. but i cant..
i guess i am selfish..
i want the best for you..
i do..
and i could never be the best..
im sorry..

if only i could erase myself..
out of your world.. your life
and out of everything that exist..
i would!
i want to do it so badly..
i dont want me..
in fact.. without you..
i dont need to have myself..

everyday..
i think of how much i need you..
but i forgot to think about..
if you ever really need me...?
i never know..
im selfish.. for thinking about
only what i feel about you...
and not about how u feel about me..
im sorry..
but i cant undo everything..
i went into deep..
what should i do now..?

i only want the best for you..
you're everything to me..
i dont want you to suffer for loving me..
sometimes i wish that
you just have to let me go..
even though its going hurt me
so badly..
i only want you to be happy..
i dont care about my feeling anymore..
because you're way important than
how i might feel..

you know i'll do anything..
for you..
maybe it is true..
loving someone is to let them go..
letting go for good..
its hard for me to write it all out like this..
it cause me tons of tears..

i wish i never hope..
i wish i never dream..
of you and me..
because right now..
i cant undo all the thoughts i have
for you and me..
and i cant seem to find the point
of what i've been writing
i dont know...
or maybe i have no guts to say things
that i dont mean..

and i love you..
i really do..
this one is real..
i know..
it's more than love..
but i dont have a word for this feeling right here..
i just love you too much..
too much..
and its not easy for me to forget..
even if i have to someday..

I CAN'T UNLOVE YOU!!!!