LONGING FOR YOUR LOVE

i love you too much, and i cant explain..
and i made this blog as a dedication to you..
to show you that i love you... to prove to you that
my life filled with the thoughts of you..
and my love is as bright as the sun...
and today i dont know where to start...
i miss us.. i miss you...
i feel like youre away from me now..
its like youre almost gone...
i dont know why am i feeling this way...
could it be because of the fights..??
baby, im seeing it now...
it clearer.. that we're no longer together..
i hate to realize it..
and now im feeling it...
my love longing for you.. no one else but you..
im too scared that you'll walk away someday...
i hate to see you leave... but you have already left..
i just forgot about that...
i want you to stay... forever..
i know you could never promise me that...
and when i told you that im scared that you'll leave..
i wanna hear you say.."i wont ever leave you"
but i know its too much for you to say it..
and i understand...
im living in this pain.. and im used to it..
i dont care how many time youre gonna hurt me...
as long as i can stay...
i know i've been complaining about the pain you put me through..
but honestly, i rather stay that way.. then to be away from you..
i wanna feel your love.. i wanna see it.. i wanna have..
and i never want to give it up...
i will give everything for your love...
if i can trade my life for your love..
i would..i swear i would.. cause there's nothing more i want other than your love..

and when i told you to stop contacting me till i come and look for you..
it was not the best thing to do..
because to be close to you is the most important thing to me..
but i just need to thing..
pull myself back together.. i wanna take control of myself..
its not because i wanna forget love.. or you..
because i know i couldnt.. and if i could.. i dont want to...
i just want us to appreciate every moment that we have...
because i dont know how long youre willing to stay...
i dont know what to feel now.. its almost empty..
i miss the love you gave me.. i want it back so badly...
i wanna be the special one for you...
i want you to love me like you mean it..
i want you to want me...
because i love you

i havent write for the past few weeks..
its i forgot.. or i dont have things to write about you..
i do.. have alot to write about you.. and how i feel for you..
it will never stop..
but i didnt write.. because youre there with me...
and you bring me happiness although we always fight...

i almost lost my mind nowadays..
and that why i need you even more now...
i cant turn to someone else.. it wont be the same...
honestly..
theres only one person that can make me feel better..
and its you.. that is how important you are to me....
people can tell me what to do.. but my heart wont listen..
they dont know you the way i do...
someone told me.. that you'll leave ne in the end..
if i didnt leave you now.. i might get even hurt in the future..
maybe...
but how if i just wait...
i dont care anymore, if i will get hurt by you someday..
because.. i cant fight this feeling and if i do try to fight it..
it is even hurt.. and i will failed...

my wish is for you to love me..
sincerely, without any condition...
protect me.. i cant take care of myself...
i need you.. and please need me..
i will always be there for you...
i wont ask for anyone else other than you...
not even in my dream...
"love conquers everything"
why cant i win your love..?
why i could never be the want you want to spend your life with?
and i wanna be the one who you wake up yo every morning..
i wanna be the one who witness your life.. your happiness..
i wanna witness every moment of yours...
i cant let someone else to replace me..
i cant witness you having a new life with someone else...
because i know im the one who saw you shine..
how could you let someone else take that away from me..

i really miss you...
the one i love...