Why aren't you shine like before? =(

i miss you.. your warm smile...
i want you now to hold me tight and please dont let me go..
i need you, yhe only reason i stay alive.. yes, and im dying now..
getting weaker everyday.. without you by my side...
and knowing that love is fading.. i have no where to return...
im in pain, love...
and i can ask for anything.. all my prayer.. they seem to dissapear...
i never want you to stop loving me..
but now, i can see that.. you wont love like before...
i cant force love anymore..
wishing that you'll love me again... because your love that keeps me alive..
and now.. truth is.. i want you back in my life... so badly..

i've lost my ego.. my pride.. infront of you.. i've lost it all...
and yet.. you wont see how deep is my feeling... if you give me another chance..
im gonna show you that there's no love like this you'll ever meet someday..
its not easy...
i cried every night, and thats no lie...
i screamed like im in real pain.. which i am..
i dont know what should i do..
i wanna walk a way.. but i cant go a day without you.. i wish you know how to release me from this knot... i still feel the attachment between us...
im too scared you wouldnt love me anymore....
i wish you can feel the pain im in..
and maybe you dont care anymore...
im no longer a part of your life... i can feel that you're gone...
im sorry.. i cant move on that easily... call me stupid.. call me crazy.. cause i am..
i could never replace you...
please understand me... i know, there's nothing you can do about it...
and so do i... what should i do with my feeling..

im out of my mind now... i dont know what to do.. and no one could understand the pain im going thru beeing without you...
i dont know where to turn to now..
helpless.. i can only cry myself to sleep...
and all i need to make myself better is you..
what should i do now...?? i dont want to be this way, but its out of my hand now...
i cant control this feeling.. it took control of me... who should i blame...?
and ofcourse i wont blame you...
i just need you.. only you can make me feel better...

and i really need the answer to all these questions in my head...
why can we be together?
do you love me like before?
whats the differences between now and berfore?
why did you just throw it all away?

im sorry...
that i love you too much..
i wish i can just forget about love..
but with you.. i know.. that i could never..
maybe you dont love me anymore...