today.. and good night

im gonna sleep again..
i wish..
this is all only a dream..
i wish i'll wake up with a smile..
i really.. hope that.. this is only a dream...
dream...

i didnt fight this feeling i have..
i wasnt denying this love..
im trying my best to live
with what i deserve..
i shouldnt ask for more..
having the chance to love you..
its more than everything
that i could get..

well,
here we go..
i want to tell you..
what i went through today..
i woke up..
i got scold by mama..
=)
and i try my best to continue
sleeping..
but i cant..
i was sitting down..
thinking what did
i missed today..
that would be you..
but i tried not to think that much..
i dont want to cry..
i dont think you like me crying..
=)
so.. i wrote a blog..
and what i wrote at the previous
blog..
is actually helping me cope
with my sadness..
i really wish it was a dream..
and im gonna see you again..
in my dream..
i'll love you..

and yaa.. i went to a movie..
'i love you, beth cooper'
you're right..
it was a nice movie...
but i only can think of you while watching it..
i almost cry...

i've been singing the whole day =)
all the song that i wanted to sing you..
im happy i can still love you..
and thanks for letting me..
=)
my phone hasnt ring
at all...
guess what i did..
i switched it off..
because i know..
i dont really need it anymore..
new thing for me..
i could live without it before...
and now.. i just dont need it anymore..
i didnt even bring it
when im going out..
=) that's quite funny..
because im so used
to wait for your call...
now i know that..
you wont call...
but.. secretly im still waiting..
=)
thats why i off it..
this is a whole new world for me..
still trying to get used to it..

p/s: i love you even more..
and i miss you.. good night

love,
happy =)