already gone by kelly clarkson

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

Even with our fists held high
It never would've worked out right
We were never meant for do or die

I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hold you, now I can't stop

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you want to cry

Started with a perfect kiss then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so, I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on so I'm already gone

Already gone, already gone, already gone
Already gone, already gone, already gone, yeah

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on so I'm already gone

i wish i can forget about you...=(

im awaken from my sleep..
again... you will always be the first
thing on my mind..
and again..
i wish this never happen..
i need you...
its hard...
being like this..
i dont want at all..
to forget about you..
i hate to try..
all i want to do is..
to love you with all my heart..
how i wish,
you would feel the same right now..
wanting to be with me so badly..
cause i really am..
im suffering not being with you...
i dont want to say all of this..
cause i really want you
to be happy..
im letting you
to be free..
god.. im praying
for this pain to go away..
i really want to be happy
again...
i want to love...
i want to live...
but its killing me now...
and i wish its worth it..

good morning sunshine..
i dont know what to wish you..
i miss you so very much..
i remember the morning we went
to gaya street...
i dont know why..
i kinda remembering everything
we've done together..
to be honest..
i wish i could turn back time..
and make it all
so perfect..
so you and can be
so happy together...

i miss you..
like this feeling inside..
is too much
and cant carry it all alone..
i miss you and loving you..
and got carried away..
i need you...
why this is happening??
what went wrong with
love...
sometimes,
i wish i could just tell you..
that i want you back..
but that would be selfish..
that would be cruel...

want this to end..
i hate doing this to you..
i never stop crying..
i cant stop..
this is hard..
i thought it would
be easy this way..
help me..
chase all this loneliness
away from me..

im trying my best...
not to let you down this time
i really want this for you..
im doing this..
cause i want to show you..
that i love you..
thats why i left..
but i still need you..
i want to hold you like before..
i hate this feeling..
i really do..
its like want you back...
and its possible.

im missing you like crazy
=(

a lil girl..
a lil boy...
fight over a candy..
and for sure.. the boy will win..
he has the candy with him..
and let the girl cry..
it happens everytime..
the weird thing is..
that lil boy never eat any of the candy
that he bought..

the boy's mom asked him
"honey, why are fighting for all these candy?"
the boy answered
"cause i want them so badly.."
the mom keep on askin..
"but you can have any other candy..
why do you have to make that girl cry..?
why dont you just let her get it..
its not like you're eating the candies.."
the boy stare at the mother and confess..
"mom, i like to see that girl cry.. i want her to cry so badly..
cause someday.. i'll will give her all these candy to her as a gift..
cause.. i wanna be the one person who can make her smile.."
the boy smile and continue explaining..
"well as you can see she cried many times before..
just for a candy.. can you imagine with these candy that i have..
how big she can smile..?"
the mom wondering.."what's going on with you son.. do you like her?"
the boy answered.. "i dont know, i dont really understand"

one day..
the boy go to the girl..
he smile at her..
but she refused to even look at him..
the said "dont hate me.. you'll ending up
liking me"=)
the girl just walked away without saying anything..
in school..
the boy brings all the candy.. in a huge box..
he can barely carry it..
and he gives it ti the girl..
the girl was confused..
"what is this? its a gift? its not even my birthday yet..
and you dont even like me.."
the boy stare at her and asked her to open the box..
the girl open it..
and she sees all the candy that she wanted to get...
she smile.. a very big smile..
she's too excited.. she hug him very tide!!
and they become friends..=)
just like any other love story..
they fall in love..
as the grew up..
so does their love..

after so long..
they only felt happiness..
how they wish this love.. this happiness..
will never end..
but its not always a happy ending..
(especially if the story written by shaiza =p)

so here the sad part..
the girl fall sick..
she getting ill...
she might not make it
anymore..
this is when the boy..
feel so sad..
he has no power to undo..
her sickness..
but the girl was trying to
accept her fate..
she's not sad about dying..
but she was sad leaving him..

she got into hospital..
the boy is the one person
who never leave her side..
she feel blessed..
that this boy actually will love her
forever..
she dont have to worry about love anymore..
she knows.. this one love..
is a miracle.. is a gift..
sent from heaven..

one day..
the boy was mad..
he cant take it anymore..
he blame everything around him..
he even blame god..
but the girl told him something..

"my love, dont be angry..
dont blame god for what happen..
it was meant to be...
and guess what..
im happy.. i've got all i wanted..
i've found you my love..
you complete me..
i dont regret anything..
love is not cruel honey..
its not pain..
you have to learn to accept..
and i promise you that love wont fade away..
even if im gone..
you will always have my love..
please my love..
forgive me...
i dont mean to leave you so soon..
but wont you be happy to let me free..
i wont suffer up there..
they take a good care of me...
you should be proud to be tested by god..
cause god knows..
how strong is your love for me..
how strong is our love..
im sure god has a better plan for us..
you'll never know my love..."

the boy was crying
so hard..
he cant even say anything..
other than "i love you.. i really do"
and then the girl.. pull out a box
under her bed..
and give it to the boy..
the boy was surprised
it was the candy's box that
he gave her when they were little kids..
"you kept it.. you never eat them.."
the girl answer..
"yea.. i never eat the candy..
i keep them cause it reminds me of you..
and how i enjoying fighting with you..
when i miss the moment..
i'll always have the box full of candy..
that u gave me..
you know it makes me smile.."
the boy asked..
"so why are giving it to me now..?"
the girl explain..
"love, i never like or wish to see you cry..
and this box.. not only content candies..
but its full of joy.. smile and love..
i wish you'll smile now.. keep it..
so you'll always have my smile when you're sad.."
the boy smile with tears on his face..
and hug the girl..
saying that he loves her..
he thank her for the wonderful life and the joy..
and she fell asleep..
forever....

and the boy..
is still believe that she will always
with him..
and love him till the end..

-the end-
i love you syg!!!

my love for you means..

love.. that i have for you..
its not a game..
that we can quit on it..
its not a competition..
no one wins.. or lose..

its a feeling that came out from
my heart without noticing it..
its a wonderful feeling..
that i wish we could share..
a love doesnt hate..
love, it doesnt see..
love that i own..
its a miracle that happened..
to me..
it teaches me alot of thing
in life..

maybe, i dont understand love..
but im feeling it right through myself..
love makes me see..
myself.. it teaches me
to believe in myself..
my love is you..

love opened up my eyes..
to a different side of life..
that i never seen before..
love shows me how special you are..

and love is not pain..
it doesnt hurt..
it always gentle..
love is never boring..
love is for you to accept..
to cherish it..

i dont know much about love..
its also unpredictable..
love is never lonely..
but all i know..
that love is a gift
that should be appreciate..
cause we'll never know..
once we lost it..
we might not going to get it
back..

i cant rest my mind from thinking of you..

the more i try not to think of you..
the more i actually think of you..
i cant close my eyes without
seeing the images of you...
i hate to say this..
but i miss you even more..

loving you this way..
its the only way i have..
there's no other choice..
i cant sleep well...
i even dream of you in my sleep..
you're everywhere..

i wish...
when i close my eyes..
you wont be there..
and when i open my eyes..
you'll be right infront of me...
cause.. its hurting me to see u in every sleep..
but when i wake up..
and you're not here with me..
it makes me sad and i'll cry everytime
i wake up from that dream of you..

to be honest..
i still..
want to hold you close..
i want to kiss your smile..
i want to touch you hair..
i want you to hug me..
it's heaven to me..

now and forever

Whenever Im weary From the battles that raged in my head You made sense of madness When my sanity hangs by a thread I lose my way, but still you Seem to understand Now & Forever, I will be your man Sometimes I just hold you Too caught up in me to see Im holding a fortune That Heaven has given to me I'll try to show you Each and every way I can Now & Forever, I will be your man Now I can rest my worries And always be sure That I wont be alone, anymore If I¡¯d only known you were there All the time, All this time¡­¡­. Until the day the ocean Doesnt touch the sand Now & Forever I will be your man Now & Forever, I will be your man now and forever by richard marx

song dedication for you: from this moment by shania twain

From This Moment On lyrics

(I do swear that I'll always be there.
I'd give anything and everything and I will always care.
Through weakness and strength, happiness and sorrow,
for better for worse, I will love you with
every beat of my heart.)
From this moment life has begun
From this moment you are the one
Right beside you is where I belong
From this moment on

From this moment I have been blessed
I live only for your happiness
And for your love I'd give my last breath
From this moment on

I give my hand to you with all my heart
Can't wait to live my life with you, can't wait to start
You and I will never be apart
My dreams came true because of you

From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment on

You're the reason I believe in love
And you're the answer to my prayers from up above
All we need is just the two of us
My dreams came true because of you

From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment
I will love you as long as I live
From this moment on

eventually out of your life

love..love..love..
do we even understand it..
now there's no more you and me..
but i cant deny the love i have for you..
it wont fade..

i wish when we go our
separate ways...
you'll find what you really want..
cause you know what you want..
dont make mistake..
i was once a mistake in your life..
you dont want that to happen..
so be careful before you fall..

did i tell you that you turn out
to be most perfect person i have ever met..
you are to me..
and i miss you so much..
i miss the light..
but it always been yours..
never was mine..
thats why i love being around
sunshine..
=)

please forgive me..
for all the pain..
anything that i've done
wrong..
now you can breathe free...
you only have to think about..
yourself..
there's no more me..=)
i really want you to be happy..
you know i'll do anything..
but i dont want tears from you..
i rather hurt myself..
then seeing you struggle
not to think about my past..
or anything to do with me..

just so you know..
i'll never stop loving you..
and you'll always know
i miss you every second..
i hope im doing the right thing
for you..

if its love.. we are really meant for each other..

sayang..
i love you..
and you know it...
i want you so badly..
but it will never work out..
because those thoughts in your head..
will never let it be "us"
if you really do love me..
this wont happen..

i wont let you suffer..
i wont let those thoughts bothering you..
i wont be a part of your life..
i just want you to be happy..
and i cant make you happy..
im useless..
why should i stay..?
i cant do anything right for you..

be free sunshine..
love.. laugh..
go and shine someone's life..
you'll brighten people's life..
you'll be so special..
and i'll be watching you shine..
and i'll be happy.. if you are..
dont get hurt my love..
you're lovable..

im leaving..
dont look for me..
i want you to be happy..
be free.. fly.. as high as you wish..
dont stop till you reach what you really want..
dont remember me as me..
please.. just think that im one of your dream..
i never exist..
go and dont come back..
the world is big enough for you to discover
my love..
you'll find someone so special...
and i wish she'll love you more than i do..
i really want the best thing to happen to you..
if you still stuck with me..
you'll never find your miracle..
you'll never find the best thing that
could ever happen to you..

love,
i wish you good luck in life..
i wish you happiness..
i wish you love..
be happy please..
you're free now sunshine..
go and shine.. dont bother to think about
what's goin to happen to me..
i'll be fine..
i love you..
and i will always do..

atleast im doing something right
for you now...

keep reading this blog..
i'll never stop writing about
SUNSHINE..
i promise..

lastly.
i love you

p/s: this blog shall continue.....

the harderst it gets.. the more love im feeling..

i wish i have a reason..
but i cant even find any reason..

"its not you.. its me"
the words.. you're using..
what it means..?
its an excuse..

what is wrong..
for me to love someone..
so much..
to love someone with all my heart..
to sincerely loving you..
what is wrong with me being true to myself..
for once???

it is pain im going through..
sometimes i cant take it..
but this love im feeling.. is even stronger..
stronger than the pain..
how am i suppose to give up..?

now can you please explain..
what is wrong to love..
what is so wrong to feel..
what is so wrong with me?
and im sure its not you..

im always the problem..
im sorry.. you dont have to deny it..
i know..
if its not for me..
you wont feel this way...

i hate to see you suffer..
from thinking about
whatever it is that related to me..
no that's not what i want..
i want you to be happy..
and i do..
you're way too special..
for all of these..
you do deserve better than this..
and i know you knew it..

i wish i can let you go..
so you're free to feel only the good things in life..
joyful story of your own..
i dont want you to share the pain
that i've been through all my life..
you're to precious for that sunshine..

owwhhh.. i dont know what to do..
am i too selfish..
im wondering if i ever done anything good for you..
its like loving you its not enough..
someone like you need more than i could ever offered..
im out of my mind..
i kept thinking about letting you go..
so hard.. but i cant..
i guess i am selfish..
i want the best for you..
i do..
and i could never be the best..
im sorry..

if only i could erase myself..
out of your world.. your life
and out of everything that exist..
i would!
i want to do it so badly..
i dont want me..
in fact.. without you..
i dont need to have myself..

everyday..
i think of how much i need you..
but i forgot to think about..
if you ever really need me...?
i never know..
im selfish.. for thinking about
only what i feel about you...
and not about how u feel about me..
im sorry..
but i cant undo everything..
i went into deep..
what should i do now..?

i only want the best for you..
you're everything to me..
i dont want you to suffer for loving me..
sometimes i wish that
you just have to let me go..
even though its going hurt me
so badly..
i only want you to be happy..
i dont care about my feeling anymore..
because you're way important than
how i might feel..

you know i'll do anything..
for you..
maybe it is true..
loving someone is to let them go..
letting go for good..
its hard for me to write it all out like this..
it cause me tons of tears..

i wish i never hope..
i wish i never dream..
of you and me..
because right now..
i cant undo all the thoughts i have
for you and me..
and i cant seem to find the point
of what i've been writing
i dont know...
or maybe i have no guts to say things
that i dont mean..

and i love you..
i really do..
this one is real..
i know..
it's more than love..
but i dont have a word for this feeling right here..
i just love you too much..
too much..
and its not easy for me to forget..
even if i have to someday..

I CAN'T UNLOVE YOU!!!!

do you remember the day you left me? read this "pieces of my heart" i was broken back then..

"now when you miss him,
it means.. let him be alone..."

"love is; every second you cry..
and not even noticing it.."

"the scariest thing in life..
when you're holding someone so close..
and trying your best not giving it all up.."

"you'll be sure.. when you want it"

i've missed the point of being so alone..
is to learn loving yourself better.."

"the miserable person inside..
is one wonderful person.."

"you have to let me in even though
it hurts.."

"in the corner of my mind..
im trying my best
to let go for good.."

"thinking of every moment..
i held you in my arms..
kills me deeper.. and im falling apart"

"and i cant count the days..
you made me happy, sad..
and cry.. but i know there's only
one LOVE i can count on"

"what's the point..
to love someone..
but not loving them??"

"you can rip out my heart..
throw it away..
stab it a thousand times..
but please.. dont ever leave it out..
bleeding.."

"i LOVE you..
i could DIE.."

"the most funny thing is..
seeing yourself cry infront
of the mirror
and laugh about it in the end.."

"Love,
it never sleeps..
it never rest..
always around..
it always been there for you..
all the time..
Love,
you'll never read it..
you'll never reach it..
but you'll feel it..
and you'll share it..
with one special person.."

"wishing for time to past by..
so fast... so fast...
i dont have to think it over..
just have to let it past..
leaving me.. as you wish from me..
to leave.. and times.. hopefully..
will heal the wound..
sweeps the tears.. let it be
gentle without marks or scars..
that can remind me of you..
let it be and be free.."

"as i bleed,
i think of you..
im bleeding even more..
love that i have..
is this a gifted love?
or a cursed?"

" love is not for you to learn..
but it is for you to experience"

"you have taken everything..
my love, my heart and my soul..
without you..
im just a left over..!!
i've got nothing!!
dont you understand...
you're my everything!!"

" i dont have anyone to talk yo..
im all alone..
and in my mind, you're having so much fun..
while im here.. crying till i cant even feel my eyes..
why dont you just kill me.. please!!
i know you'd never ask me this..
but i did..
i did gave up on everything for you.. ya you..
and i've made you my life.. my everything..
and now you're leaving me.. and i..
i have nothing left..
i miss you so badly..
if i have one wish..
that would be..
for you to come back, love"

"i was scared
you will leave me someday..
but now.. i dont have to..
because you have left!!"

ANOTHER HAPPY DAY <3

you know my sunshine,
you shine so bright today..
even my heart can see it...
im glad that you.. filled my day..
with laughter... and happiness..
i love what we've shared..

im so happy..
and im feeling so lovely..
so high with the love you showed me...
i love you sunshine..
thank you for today....!!
and still i want to thank you
for all the days.. you've shared with me
the bitter sweet days..
the happy days..
i cherish every moment..
i love you!!!!!!

The one love i cant resist...=)

the one love i could never resist..
i could never hate..
and i will never forget..
my one true love...

never before a man came into my life
with such attraction
like you do...
every part of you...
every inch of you...
they are the weapon that can make me weak..
and i just cant resist you...
how to explain such feeling..
when you touches me...
im done...
i cant walk away from you..
just by looking into your eyes..
i could fall so deep.. and the next thing i know..
i'll be in your arms..

your kisses..
i cant even say it..
the tingle in my heart..
every time our lips touches..
and there for..
i know.. i just cant resist you..
and im asking you not to stop..
keep loving me....
because i'll be always loving you...

whenever, we fight over something..
you know that you'll always win..
because i cant live without you..
those argument.. it's not a reason for me to stay
away from you...
well, i cant go a day without you...
i cant stay mad at you the whole time..
i tried to.. but guess what..
it didnt work at all..
i love you.. and i need you..
i cant resist you......

i wanted to give you this on our 4th monthsary.. but i didnt.. so here it goes..

im glad.. i met you.. love.
i never knew.. there's something so beautiful
in this world before i met you..
when you came into my life..
you brought in lights to me..
brighten up my life..

my dreams came alive....
you're like a fantasy..
and sometimes,
i just dont believe it...
if it's real..
that.. you exist..

so alive.. so real.. and i can touch it...
it was only a dream before..
it's unbelievable
that.. you're here..
infront of me..
turn my whole world upside down..
so adventures..

you're so special.. and till
today... i couldnt find any words..
to describe you...
you're like a beautiful disaster.. =p

im so touch by you..
so deep i cant turn back..
im not sure if you'll ever know this..
that you're more than you could ever think of..
you have no idea how wonderful you are..
because you are.. to me so wonderful..
i cant write anything..
you're just something ordinary to me..
and i guess.. you will only happen once in a life time..
and no matter what is going to happen..
i promise you this..
i wont forget..

love,
happy=)

falling apart?? please love dont let it happen.. i need your help.. lets work things out

..........it's hard for me as it's for you..............
but please understand.. why are we still here..
it is because we share something.. so precious.. so special..
it is love.. you cant let it go...

it's me..
i know how hard it is for you to deal
with all the mistakes... i've done
and you have know idea.. how hard i have to fight
for myself..
just to prove that wasn't the real me..
give a chance.. to show you
how true i am..
to myself..
to this love...

this part right here..
i cant say anything much...
i dont have excuses...
im just me now..
i used to be so good in words..
but im not using it now..
it's not that i let you to judge me..
but please believe in me..
believe in this love i have for only you..

i only need you..
the reason
the light..
the love...
you'll always be my "sunshine"

i'm sorry that i love you too much..
i cant go back..
im stuck..
no one can tell me what to do...
no even you..

i love you..
again and over again..
it never stop..
i fall for you each day..
are we falling apart..?
i dont want to be ready to leave you..
or to be leave by you..
all i want to do is.. be ready to spend
the rest of my life with you..
it is too much to ask..
but.. im just telling you how i feel..

loving you..
it's not a job that i can easily quit..
it's not a letter or picture..
that can be burn..
it's a melody....
stuck inside my head..
and even if someday.. i might forget..
but when i hear the same old melody..
i'll think of you..

your love.. i cant really describe..
so hard to let go...
im insane..
trying to write it..


p/s; this blog shall continue...

im falling into deep.. you've changed me!!

this is where..
i want to be someone so special..
just for you..
i dont know if its too late..
but.. i wanted to..

you're so precious..
i cant resist..
and i admit.. that i've fall for you.. so deeply..
i hardly turn back..
there's no u-turn in love..

i got to have you..
and if i could..
i want you forever..!!
i love you and i could die..
so deep..
so deep..
it was always you..
in every angle of my everyday life..
everything i think of i relate to you..
even i dont know.. why??
it must be.. because i want you in my life..
and you are already in it..
so deep..
i cant take you out of my life..
im scared myself..
im too scared.. i'll get hurt someday..
hurt by you.. "sunshine"..

see this..
when you're not around.. or you're around..
either way.. i think of my future..
and it is with you..
i know.. im insane!!
i went to far..
but i cant help it..
i just cant!
and i dont know how to stop it..
im so obsess..
i admit..
there's no need to be ashamed with what
im feeling..
am i right..

thats why i've change..
for this love.. im longing to have..
im scared i'll never goin to find one little love
like yours.. if i lost yours..
i know.. i've made a lot of mistake
before i met you..
i cant change that anymore..
i really do regret it..
but im willing to be a better person..
for the sake of our love...
this one love.. give me a reason to believe..
cant you see it..
no one ever gone this far.. to change me..
to make me believe..

this is how brilliant you are to me...
damn precious..
any girl out there would kill..
to feel what i feel about you..
so hard to let go now..

happiness that he brought to my life.. just like a light coming from the sun..

hard to believe..
i fall again..
i thought this would be the same..
something so common in life..
i hate falling in love..

you're different my love..
the taste of love u gave me..
it's the most joyful thought!
i want to thank you..
i cherish every moment you spent with me..

remember every night we spent
on the phone..
we've a lot to talk about..
i never want to hang up on you..
i cant seem to understand..
i miss having you.. like before..
it is love that we share..
im shock! i never actually feel this way..
it's like im so high.. i cant really think..
all i want to do is..
be by your side.. till the end..
no doubt.. i love you sunshine..

my life was once a sorrow story to tell..
im faking every smile..
im faking every second of life..
im such a fake..
because.. there wasnt anyone who's believing in me..
im too scared to show who i really was..
before you.. im not being myself..
playing games.. just to fit in..
and this is how you know me..
because i never really trust you at first..

but, when i fall for you..
when you showed me what's real..
all the laugh we shared..
the happiness u brought to me....
i feel.. so much alive..
you bring out the real me...

never was a man in my life..
give me so much happiness..
so much sweet memories..
like you do..
sunshine...

the song.. "sunshine"
thats you..
we used to sing it
together..
i mean it..
thank you for your love...

this is how i found the light that shows me the way in life

too stupid i was.. too eager to know..
i wont mind anything that will happen in the future..
so careless.. somehow.. i guess i just dont love myself..
a mistake i am doing..
all this while..
and i never knew.. i'll regret it
till i found the brightest star..
in the universe..
i cant almost see it shinning so bright..
"sunshine"
that's what i call it..

i was blinded by the world..
and this is what happened..

i hate this person..
i dont like his attitude..
so not my type..
so dumb.. i went out with him a few time..
i was laughing about him..
because i never knew..
he's something..
should i call him wonderful?
should i call him special..?
neither..!!
he's more than a word can describe..
he is the light.. the love..
i could never find in any men in this planet earth..
he's so beautiful...
"sunshine"